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Doctor who meme ¦ four brotps [2/4]
↪ Eleven/CraigCraig, very soon I won’t be here. My time is running out. I don’t mean Exidor. “Silence will fall when the question is asked.” I don’t even know what the question is. I always knew I’d die still asking. The thing is, Craig, it’s tomorrow. Can’t put it off anymore. Tomorrow is the day I…
“I got teased for being a redheadwhen I was younger, which is strange because I’m Scottish and there are loads of us - we should unite forces! I love my red hair.” - Karen Gillan
At Ryan’s memorial Wednesday night in West Chester, people were invited up to the microphone to say a few words about his life, whatever they were feeling at that moment. I walked to the podium and tried to share memories of my dear friend, but the words were just spinning in my head. What came out were the mumblings of a man trying his best not to cry, and I wasn’t even successful at that…
I felt 34-percent funnier when I was with Ryan, but I guess everyone did. He had such a hair trigger laugh reflex. He lived his life wanting to laugh and wanting you to laugh with him. He would cackle really fucking loud, too, and it wasn’t uncommon that he would fall over from it. Sometimes I would fall with him because his spirit was very contagious…
I’m becoming upset now because this isn’t right, goddamnit. Ryan, I had to go wake up Madison and tell her you were gone. Do you know how hard that was?!! She loved you so much and I know you loved her, so why, buddy? Rocko will never get to know you like she did, nor will my daughter that is coming in October. I cry a lot about that.
Roger wrote a pretty song for you, but you’re not here to listen to it. And I’m hurting! We all are because we loved you so much and now you’re gone. I know your spirit lives on in me, Angie, Bam and everyone you touched, but that’s pretty tough to see right now through the tears. I’m starting to ramble now, just like I did at the memorial, so I’ll stop. You’ll have to excuse me, I’m just very sad because I lost my brother and my world got about 134-percent less funny. I don’t know what else to say right now, so I will close with I love you, Ryan. I have a lot of emotions swirling, but I want you to know I love you so very much.
Sincerely and always,
Knoxville
